a rambling letter of thoughts for 2025⋆
Dear friend,
It’s already been a week into this new year, and something feels different. I don’t want to be dramatic, but I definitely feel a shift in me + my mindset after this holiday season.
First of all, I’ve been crying non-stop for the last week?? Not sure if that’s due to spending a lovely holiday season with my family, seeing old friends back in Canada, watching the entirety of This Is Us, hormones, or the idea of turning 30 this year… No idea what it is, but SOMETHING is in the air… and that something is beautiful.
Over the last few years, I’ve let my mind plague me with a lot of fears—fear that I’ll never get what I want in life, that I’m not good enough, that time is running out, and that I have something to prove; when really, I’m actually all good… and fully whole, as I am, right now—but the fact that I feel that right now?? Weird.
I wonder if this newfound ⋆peace⋆ stems from the fact that I don’t feel particularly rushed to do anything (which is new for me, btw) or because I took a melatonin pill for the first time and actually slept through the night (life hack). Either way, I genuinely feel like this is finally the year that I soak it all in.
“Well that sounds absolutely dandy Serena, but what the heck does that mean?” Well, I have this inner pull to write songs that commemorate the moments of my life I never want to forget; eg. the best date I’ve ever been on, the thrill of living in London, or random, happy memories from my childhood.
Historically, my music has been a tool for me to process my emotions (namely painful ones) and while that will always be the case, I also want to write about my happiest moments. I have a terrible memory, so maybe that’ll immortalize them for me.
Basically, I don’t want to live fearfully, or always be looking towards the next thing; I want to rest in and feel gratitude towards each day of being alive.
Because what am I rushing towards?? If anything, the only thing that’s guaranteed at the end of it all is death. Why the heck would I want to get there quicker?? [Woops, sorry for getting dark there haha]
Anyways, there’s something to appreciate out of most days and I want to remember that when I feel like crap.
Say it with me— “I have everything that I need, and what’s meant for me will be mine.”
Anyways, that’s where my brain’s at right now, at the start of 2025. Thanks for reading + let’s see where it goes throughout the year!
With all the love,
Serena Sun x
